recently he has been so horrible. i feel horrible mainly because he is horrible. sure we both are horrible. his mother went to hospital and he avoided seeing her. - then i told he he i was really worried for his spiritual health and felt so much guilt. he said he felt pure hate. then after this he changed his fricking face book picture / my sister in law which- we had a huge following out on due to blogs etc. of her kissing him. then he i said something about it and he said oh... wha??? i thought that was you in is a big scroll of photos of me blah blah blah... i hate the he said she said thing .. i am fricking livid and hurt., for his mother was close to death and my was a demon. i am mother and that is horrible. to see and think what has become. more to come. i am in tears. the battles of ignorance is constant for me. i so need a break from that horribleness. it is horrible.