I am feeling pissy and reactive. I am having an event on Saturday and now there are so many events on that day some people , sadly my people i perceived as true friend that i would be loyal to death with> behaving like a losers in my mind for being a party jumpers ala extrovert always revving the better party with the better socio social...." oh i am extrovert - i have to juggle my responsibilities and parties now" oh well, fuck you very much, ye with no memory - i think on Saturday who ever shows up on Saturday is now my new best friends and screw you. i dont what this tantrum is called projection or reflection or slander... this is exactly why i am introvert, it is exhausting to keep up for you when i could be in the field of dreams.